Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Spoke to soon ....

Ok so as usual I spoke to soon.... Adam DID not sleep last night. He slept the first part of the night, but has been up and down since about 3:00am. We never know what causes it. I wish we knew! Over the past 16 months we have diagnosed it colic, reflux, nightmares, unable to get into REM sleep and he gets woken up, sensory issues .... the list could go on. Doctors do not seem to understand when we tell them he does not sleep. His genetic doctor did mention melatonin, but I think Adam might still be to young for it. As much as I hate to admit it , benedryl sometimes works!
He was such a happy boy last night when he got home from grandmama's. He was watching all of us and all the activity going on around him! He loves to see Max (the dog). Jake and Matt both were so glad Adam was home. Jake is so funny trying to carry Adam around. They both look awkward!
I have to put on my bad mom hat this morning! Poor Jake was trying to tell me something and I totally lost my cool and yelled "JUST GET DRESSED!" I feel so guilty now. I did apologize to him and let him know that I did want to hear what he had to say, but at the same time we were running late and he needed to continue getting dressed. I am not sure how we were running late since I have been up since before six, but we were! By the time you make breakfast for Jake and Matt, breakfast for Adam, feed Adam, take the dog out, clean up breakfast, make lunch, everyone get dressed, hair brushed, teeth brused, backpacks zipped, lunches in backpack and oh yeah - I do have to be dressed and presentable for work, also Adam bag packed since my mom was keeping him today, dog put up and out the door - I do not know why I would be running late anywhere! I know most moms feel that way in the morning, whether you have 1 child or 3! whether you work or don't work.... School mornings are just hectic!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008


Adam slept through the night for the FIRST Time in 16 months on Saturday night! I did not know whether to laugh or cry. It freaked Craig and I out totally! I have told everyone I know that Adam slept through the night. They look at me like I am crazy. I do not think that anyone really understands that he have NEVER slept through the night! I think people, friends, family think we make it up. Everyday at work I have someone talk about how tired they are. I do not think they truly understand what it is like to never get a full nights sleep. We have been very lucky that my in-laws have kept Adam once or twice every week for almost a year. One for us to get sleep and for Jake and matt to get sleep. My mother in law keeps Adam two days a week while I work. As much as we miss him, it does help in keeping some normalcy to our life.
I have been with my two best friends a lot over the past few weeks. We all have kids the same ages. They both had babies in Jan and Feb this year. Both babies are passing Adam in all the things they can do. That has been really hard. They are both crawling and pulling up and moving around so much more. I am happy for my friends, because both these babies are precious! They are the only baby girls I have in my life and I enjoy them, but everytime I am around them I realize more and more how delayed Adam really is.... how do I change this , what do I do to help him. We work with him on a daily basis, but he is just not getting more mobile on his own.
He is getting more verbal. He has now started squeezing me and biting my shoulder if I do not do what he wants. Now the biting is not a good thing, however, I am so excited he is trying to communicate with me! Yay Adam!